This is what I wanted to say but didn't:
That's not the easiest question to answer:
I feel kind of sad that only one of my male friends is into WoW
I'm the only girl of my closest friends who does play WoW.
I would love for my other friends to play but the girls I am closest to are a tough street-wise diva with limited income, a slightly hippie-ish girl living with her bf, a college student with a full time schedule and a number of others who find the idea of spending a dime on something like this to be pointless.
I would love to share the fun side of WoW with them, but its not their thing.
My only friend who plays hates playing in groups, gets mean if I don't let him be the boss and generally makes me free depressed when I play with him.
So I played solo for a long time.
I met one guy in game to play with but he was really hot tempered and made me feel nervous all the time.
Then I started playing more with the people in my guild, it was fun doing stuff with a group of people. Some of them are so amazing i just love having them around. One of them is trying to get me to be less afraid of what people think of me or my taste in hobbies
I am a geek, I wear glasses, I hated gym class, I got bullied as a jr high student, I was home-schooled after that. I have very little time for social stuff, WoW is one of the few places I can go to hang out with people.
At first I was so afraid to talk to people in game. But I found there are some intelligent, nice people and some close minded and angry people.
I''ve learned to accept that gaming and geekiness, and being what some would critise is not what makes people see me negatively, they'd find something else to pick on me if I wasn't a fan of WoW or geeky
So I decided to embrace my geeky side.
Who-Con, Comic-con and Blizz-con here I come ;)
Basically, I am changing how I let them make me feel.
Sometimes changing my attitude works when I feel stigma but sometimes I have to accept myself and the negative sides of how some people view me because I'm geeky.
Arwen
